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Yeah, I swear every now and then. I guess that makes me a naughty little monkey. If you have a problem with that, more power to ya. Everyone needs a hobby.

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Gong Stampato

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Ribbed-for-Her-Pleasure-Scarf
'04
Hot Head x 1
Top Secret
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This is where it's at:
The Band: System of a Down
The Album: Mezmerize
The Song: Lost in Hollywood


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THE CATS

Now there's a story in that, huh?

Beatrice

Shy, sweet and loving. She's got huge, expressive eyes and she loves pork rinds (dad gives them to her, ok?!)

Theta

Bizarre, curious and one fry short of a Happy Meal. She loves to suck on my ear and string yarn all around the house.


THE SNAKE

What got you started on snakes, anyway?

Nora

Beautiful, calm and predictable. She's an amel corn I got at the '03 Herp Show in Tucson as a hatchling. It was love at first sight.


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Thursday, October 07, 2004
Witchcraft
I think that witchcraft (the cool kind, not the lame Wicca kind) would have to be something like writing in HTML. Sure, everyone can do it, but who really wants to sit there and push through all that? Most people can be completely happy with a homepage born from a template. But there are those out there who slave away at the code, putting endless hours into their creation, and, in the end, reap their just rewards. HTML, like this witchcraft I imagine, can do so much more. It takes a simple thing and makes it extrodinary and totally cool...almost like magic. Get it? You people should pay me for this cuz it's gold.

In other news...don't you hate it when you see your friend at the coffee shop and you clean your table up so they can sit down and then they completely blow you off and sit with someone else? I just think that's terribly rude.

 
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Why I love my Nora
So, as I said earlier, I had this massively insane night at work on Sunday. Halfway through my shift I started worrying about my cornsnake, Nora, because I haven't been able to feed her since she was going to shed soon. It kinda stresses me out to think that she's hungry. When I got home that night, there was this freshly shed skin all laid out on the floor of her cage. That was just another little gem of a moment that made me glad to be involved with reptiles.

I guess I could post some pictures of her, since she's gotten a bit bigger...

 
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
The smell of Victory
I'm in a writing 101 class. It's quite a bit beneath me. I know that sounds arrogant, but, please, I could teach that damn class. But the point is, I need to take it and that's that. So here's my first assignment, please don't plagerize.



The smell of Victory

Scientists have said that smell is the sense tied most closely to memory. In my experience, there are many smells, like those of citrus and cookies, that take me to a wonderful time and place. There are other smells, like those of vomit and blood, that I would just as soon forget. I hadn't been working in the emergency room for long when I first met a very memorable odor.

The nurse had told me to flush the laceration on the woman in bed 27. Since the cut was on the back of the woman's head, the nurse added that I would also need to shave some hair away so the doctor could better see the area. Fair enough, or so I thought. I walked into the room, my hands brimming with supplies-a bottle of saline, a sterile bowl, a 10 ML syringe, a splash guard, a razor, and some medical scissors and tweezers. I was not entirely prepared for what met me at the door.

It was the smell of infection, greeting me with its outstanding signature. It is a vile, biting, rancid odor. The relatively small wound on this woman's occipital was a factory for an invisible cloud of penetrating foulness. It lurked in the room and dared for me to challenge it. Instead, I politely smiled and set my supplies on a metal stand next to the bed. It clanked a bit as I moved it away to brave the Smell and investigate the source.

The woman lay on her side, head under a chux, the goofy smile of a narcotics lightweight on her face. I grabbed a pair of green latex gloves and stepped behind her as she spoke to me. She told me she had injured herself a week ago, but the hospital she had gone to didn't suture the cut. It was now, very noticeably, a problem. I gently touched her crown and braced myself as I lifted her brunette hair away and peered closer. Her hair was matted and stuck to the slice. The wound was chunky with the products of infection and the Smell poured from it like rainwater from a clogged gutter. I smiled, then politely excused myself for one last necessary supplement to my basic irrigation kit.

I walked out of the room, gasping for air. I rushed to the medication room, only a few steps away, and searched the crowded shelves of sterile water and lidocaine for a tiny, otherwise inconsequential, bottle of peppermint essential oil. That vial of compressed mint was my own personal savior. Within seconds, I had snatched it from its shelf, impressed the childproof cap, and twisted the bottle open. I tipped the top onto my finger and rubbed the cloudy oil inside my nostrils. Peppermint is deeply beautiful and relieving. Its soothing, deodorizing properties were, perhaps, only amplified by the terror I had just inhaled. This was my only defense against the Smell and, armed now with a few drops on my clothing, I returned to face the infection.

I assembled my supplies like a seasoned solider preparing for war and pushed saline through the open wound one syringe at a time. The water splashed and drained down the woman's head, carrying all sorts of particles with it. I carefully navigated the razor around the perimeter and scraped away the matted hair. After 15 minutes and a bit of tidying up-picking up wet towels, used supplies and trash-I proudly walked out of the room to report my efforts to the doctor. My actions had not been particularly noteworthy, but what mattered was I had conquered, and instead of infection, the Smell was now victory.


Brace yourself
I'm at that inevitable point of knitting deadlock. School has really started to kick off and, coupled with work, my energy is in a puddle at my feet every day. It's so easy to committ hours upon hours to knitting...when there's nothing else going on. But I have class on both of my Stitch 'n Bitch nights and homework to suck all my spare minutes away. Ok, so my life isn't all that crazy, but things sure would be nicer if I could knit during lecture. It's a bummer to be loosing my steam as I approach the gift-giving season.




I had this amazingly insane night at work. I mean, that place is usually busy, but the patients aren't always that sick. The other night, though, whew. They just kept coming in and coming in...and everyone had legitimate trauma. It wasn't 'Oh, I fell and twisted my ankle' it was 'My buddy crashed his bike into a wall and now he can't remember his name.' (There's an interesting postscript to that story. If you are ever in a situation where you see someone crash their motorcycle into a wall, please call 911. Don't try to move someone who may have a massive spinal injury. Don't try to trick them when they have no idea who or where they are. Don't be rude to the staff when you get to the hospital. And, for pete's sake, don't ride your bike inside a warehouse!) I saw broken bones, concussions, lacerations, mashed fingers and car accidents all fricken night. Not to mention it was psych city for some reason.

I took a 10 min vacation about six hours into my shift and let it all sink in. That was the first break I'd had because everything was so nuts. I realized that I was probably going to be a sage at some point. If I seriously continue in emergency nursing, I'll have nights like that all the time. In a way that's good to know, that every once in a while you can care for people who really need it. At the same time...there's a point where I will have seen it all, and all of it is pretty gruesome.

Tonight there was a newstory about a hospital in Bisbee that is losing tons of money on illegal immigrants. It's good to see that's in the news. People don't like to talk about it and I'm glad that the word is finally getting out there.

 
Friday, October 01, 2004
Mothers to fear
I am a cynic.

I knew that becoming one would be just a matter of time. I braced myself for it. I could see that the ER was no place for blanket sympathy-drug addicts feed off of it. My utmost compassion is reserved for those who can be trusted, those who need it. Granted, I'm always professional and provide concern to any problem, I'm just not naieve enough to believe everything that wanders into my department.

That's why taking a woman up to Labor and Delievery is such a nice break. I think it's exciting to see the dad all bundled up with stuff and the mom just sits back in the wheelchair-mostly calm-and braces herself for the storm. I just think what an awsome day it is for this couple and their expirence to me is unfathomable. And I'd like to keep it that way for a long time, of course.

I had to take a woman up to L&D last night around 0200. I was trying to burn the last hour of my shift and I wanted that break. I thought the walk would put me in a better mood. I chatted with the woman and asked her all those boring, overused questions. Is this your first? yes, blah blah blah. She said she was scheduled for a C-section the next day, but her water had broken.

"I guess this is going to be a night baby," she said, sounding almost disappointed.
"Oh, you never know," I replied, implicating that her labor would probably continue into the morning. To that she retorted, in almost a threatening way, "They had better not put me through any of that labor stuff." Labor stuff? Why the hell did you get pregnant?! This is proof to me that you were probably not intended to procreate.

The saga continued.

The L&D ladies told me which room to bring her too and as I rolled her into it, she complained immediatly. "What, I don't get to pick my room? I wanted a blue room! I hate beige! It's so hospitally..." I was apalled. The nurses tried to calm her down by reminding her that her room was the largest suite on the floor. She was still upset. Large suite or not, the room wasn't blue, and I guess that's all that mattered.

The nurse asked why a C-section was being performed. That set this mom-to-be off again. Everyone argued with her, blah blah blah. That's because it's stupid, I thought. Most mothers regret not being able to go through the natural process of birth. The L&D nurse was amazing. She stopped everything, sat down and, like an angle, explained every reason a C-section was performed, every medical condition that would warrant it. The nurse told her that she shouldn't take offense to the question because it told the staff if there were any conditions that would make the birth harder. I've never seen that kind of patience. I've never seen anyone handle a crazy person with such finesse and grace. That nurse definately made an impression on me, but she had almost no impact on the woman.

I hate that woman. I fear the child that she has. I don't know why that woman ever got pregnant, she wasn't young, if you know what I mean. I hope some day, she looks back on her actions and is utterly disgusted with her self. That's the only true retribution that I could ever feel.

Posted at 19:04 by Rae
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